Just One Pebble

I have written this book in hopes that it will be read for those that most need it.

There are so many males hiding a deep dark secret because of pride and their secret eats them up inside as it did me.

To deal with the secrets they may turn to drugs or alcohol, they may even be sitting within a prison cell because they have not dealt with the secret.

Your secret is not a punishment and until you understand that you will continue to sit in your own demise.My story is about a new born baby that is abandoned and neglected right up through a life of physical and mental abuse by the ones that are meant to love me and protect me.

My teenage years were of sexual abuse by a trusted person within our church and the way that I had to cope with what was happening to me.

With no-one to turn to my mental health spiraled out of control, from the highs to the lows I coped alone.

I dealt with my mental health with drugs and alcohol and spent a lot of years punishing myself and torturing myself in my own hell that I had created.

I did try and deal with my tortures in my later years but my words only fell on death ears and my struggles continued, suicide was always an option that I chose and also failed on many attempts, someone really wanted me alive and I realized there was a reason as to why I had to live.

I now cope with my issues through medication after been diagnosed with COMPLEX PTSD, ANXIETY, DEPRESSION AND BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISSORDER.My book was so difficult to write but for someone that finds it hard to write or read one sentence this is a big accomplishment for me, I am so happy that i can share my story now with the world.