Four Months of Silence

One of the most compelling reasons I like to practice certain things, such as muteness or blindness, is that I thought that I had found the truth once in my life, so I had stopped looking for the truth. And I instead started judging other's way of life as sinister and their Gods as unworthy.

I was so sure that I had found the truth that I was reluctant to listen to anyone else. And would not be able to have a decent, calm, and logical argumentation or debate.

Consequently, I realized years after that I had ears to hear, but I chose not to use them, I had a tongue to tell the right things, but I said otherwise.

I had eyes to see, but I was blind to see that I was wrong; therefore, I decided to start learning to hear, see and talk from scratch!In any debates, I would get angry, raise my voice, mock, and employ sarcasm to defeat my challengers.

I would only lecture or, better said, shout rather than lecture; it was not a debate but rather a fight.

Its purpose was not to hear and learn each other's point of view, but rather to beat my opponents and prove my point to them.

I would become full of rage at times until I found out that I may not have found the truth as I got older and more mature. And what I had seen as the truth was, in fact, only a false imitation and dark simulation of reality.