The Way I Used to Be

A New York Times bestseller.

In the tradition of Speak, this extraordinary debut novel is a poignant book that realistically looks at the lasting effects of trauma on love, relationships, and life (School Library Journal, starred review).

Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didnt change who she was. But the night her brothers best friend rapes her, Edens world capsizes.

What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once lovedwho she once lovedshe now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows shes supposed to tell someone what happened but she cant. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.

Told in four partsfreshman, sophomore, junior, and senior yearthis provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young womans strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, all while learning to embrace the power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.