Somewhere in the Music, I'll Find Me : a Memoir

A COMING-OF-AGE-STORY told with raw honesty, suspense, and dashes of humor, Somewhere in the Music, I'll Find Me is a woman's journey about self-acceptance and healing in the face of grief and devastating loss.

Musician Laurie Markvart was adrift in life. In the wake of the deaths of her father and preemie baby, her family life was in anguish, and her music career stalled.

Music was the remedy for anything in Laurie's life. Looking for a quick fix, she attended an open audition in Los Angeles for X-Factor's reality TV singing show. During the demanding two-day audition, Laurie reflected on her lifelong music journey.

As a teen, she fled her isolated Wisconsin farm town and her greatest supporter, her loving but mentally ill mother, for the famous music scenes of Minneapolis, Austin, and New York City. In rock bands, on tours, and with Broadway auditions, Laurie had many highs and lows, successes and failures - some humorous, some dangerous. At the center of it all was a stormy relationship with her mentally ill mother and Laurie's growing anxiety disorder that plagued her most. The despair she thought would be extinguished with marriage and parenting, was for a time, but it shattered with the profound loss of her father and baby.

With mounting pressure to succeed at the X-Factor audition, Laurie must push through her anxieties and heartbreaking reflections and not only find herself in the music, but a way to move forward and heal.